No. 9

What is your idea of perfect happiness?
Reciprocated feelings between those I care about and enjoying my day.

What is your greatest fear?
People I love dying or getting hurt in any way.

What is your most marked characteristic?
Apparently I look like a grouch with a superiority complex, but I’m very kind and mousy.

What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?
I’m lazy. Very lazy. And I filter everything incessently before I spit it out.

Which living person do you most despise?
Nobody, really. I’ll admit there are a few people I dislike, but I don’t ‘despise’ them.

What is your greatest extravagance?
A new perfume.

What is your current state of mind?
I really just want to get this interview over with. I’m not nervous about it, I just want to relax tonight. I wish I could spend more time with Stephen. I feel kind of nauseous because my diet has been really poor lately.

What do you consider the most overrated virtue?
Patience, probably because I lack it… especially when driving.

On what occasion do you lie?
Hardly ever. I do make up stupid little things to sound smart every so often though. It’s pretty dumb, actually.

What do you dislike most about your appearance?
I want to lose an additional 20 pounds, but not how I lost the last 20 though. That was just brutal.

What is the quality you most like in a man?
If I can feel comfortable around him- it’s a rare thing.

What is the quality you most like in a woman?
Originality- in personality, tastes, dress, look, ideas, etc.

Which words or phrases do you most overuse?
‘Just out of curiosity…’

What or who is the greatest love of your life?
I would say any way to feel complete or accomplished- through drawing, writing, traveling, or listening.

When and where were you happiest?

I cannot quite name a time period.

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

I would be more carefree.

Which talent would you most like to have?

Play musical instruments very well. No, no… the gift of gab.

What do you consider your greatest achievement?
I haven’t gotten there yet.

If you were to die and come back as a person or thing, what do you think it would be?
A blade of grass.

Where would you like to live?
Manhattan.

What is your most treasured possession?
The love that is returned to me.

What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery?
Pure anxiety. Not knowing where to go or what to do. Just laying there frozen, because you cannot find the will or energy to go anywhere or do anything. You fear you will disappoint your loved ones. You can’t eat. You awake from what little sleep you do get with your heart pounding in anxiety, sweating without moving and just feeling as if everything will ultimately collapse on you. Been there.

What is your favorite occupation?
Having a deep and comfortable conversation with anyone.

Who is your favorite hero of fiction?
Holden Caufield.

What are your favorite names?
Olive, Violet, Wright

What is it that you most dislike?
Anxiety, racism, judgement upon others for differentiation, dirty looks, being yelled at

How would you like to die?
I’m unsure.

Ho hum. I hate getting all dressed up and then just sitting around, waiting until I can go show myself off.